Archive for May, 2004
Freak
So I’m sort of sitting here in a mild state of panic right now. It feels like my lung is collapsing again, but I’m not totally sure. I’ve gone through this a few times before and it ended up being nothing, but it still doesn’t stop me from freaking out. I really don’t want to go through all that hell again. Not to mention the fact that I have no insurance right now. This thing would have bankrupted my family the first time it happened if it weren’t for our insurance. If I have to go to the hospital over it this time, it will be much worse. They already told me that they would have to do invasive surgery if it got bad a second time. Which has got to be damn expensive, and since I have no insurance that isn’t really helping me to be calm.
I’m trying to just be calm, because it will just be worse if I hyperventilate myself. I’m really not too sure what to do, if it gets bad enough I’m going to have to go to the hospital, but I don’t know how I’ll afford it.
Anyway, I hope that it’s just going to go away, I’m going to try and lay down to see if I can sleep it away.