Hmm
Well, Unfortunately I wasn’t able to get together and hang out with Jackie this week 🙁 It’s weird going from hanging out several times a week to not hardly seeing each other at all for about two weeks. I miss my Jackie <3
Organized a last minute trip to go clubbing at Area51. Nobody but Jessie and me were able to go though, everybody else was kept from coming for various reasons. It was good just hanging out with Jessie again, we haven’t done that in a damn long time, it’s good we have managed to stay good friends after all the crap we put each other through. It was pretty fun, but next time I’ll remember to eat earlier. I was feeling pretty crummy through the evening because I hadn’t eaten until about 5 minutes before going into the club. Digestion and large quantities of beer do not necessarily do well with me. Other than that it was great, the club has been getting some seriously cool decoration on. The downstairs is all the ‘mood lounge’ now, little candles at all the tables and the lights turned down lower. A whole lot cooler for just chilling and chatting with friends. A whole bunch of new faces working there that I don’t recognize though. I guess if I get going regularly again I’ll get to know them. I keep thinking about how much of a pain in the ass it’s going to be to find a club as cool as Area when I get down to California. I mean, hell, I am friends with well over half of the employees there. It’s going to suck to go to a club and not have that comfort of being buds with the man or lady mixing your drink.
It looks like Mardi Gras at Area on the 24th though. I was thinking of going someplace else, but I am just so comfortable at Area, and they are going to do a little bit of Mardi Gras stuff. Not as much as Bourbon Street I’m sure, but at least it will be in familiar territory.
Anyway, the sandman is out to get me. I’m feeling pretty lagged, and that’s about all I can think to say now. So, until later. Hopefully not another month out. 🙂
Entertaining the idea
1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I lovable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I’ll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When’s the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn’t?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Are you going to put this on your LJ and see what I say about you?
Meander
So just sitting here thinking about life in general. I keep trying to figure out why I feel so apathetic all the time. In all reality things are pretty good for me. I have good friends, my life is pretty comfortable. I really don’t have much to complain about, but I manage to find a way to do it anyway. I didn’t use to be like this, and I would like to go back to how I was pre-Zoe. I’m hoping the changes I’m planning on making over the next little while will be effective in returning me to that state. I’m planning on doing daily meditations again, getting my head reorganized.
I realize that a lot of my behavior and thought for the negativity in my life was created during the time Zoe and I dated. We both made a mistake and stayed together much longer than we should have. Her thought and behavior patterns were very negative. As a result of spending so much time with her I absorbed a lot of that outlook.
My daily practices were much different than they are now as well. I figure if I get myself back to my previous lifestyle, my attitude will change accordingly. Unfortunately I work a lot, so I can’t quite get 100% back to the way things were, but i can return a healthy portion of my habits. Unfortunately, this probably means I won’t be available for chat quite as much as I have been. That won’t be too bad though, anybody will still be able to contact me through e-mail and my forum, and I’ll be chatting a little.
So hopefully this little plan of mine will work, then I can stop being so damned whiny and get on with my life. Wish me luck. You’ll know it’s working when i stop posting whiny crap like i have been since i started this journal 🙂
I also wanted to just say thanks to everybody that’s been there for me, especially when I’m being an incessant whiner. I know it gets annoying to have to hear about petty little problems all the time, so thanks for listening even when it was irritating 🙂 It hurts me to know that when I leave here to move to California I will be leaving you all behind. I love all of my friends and I am going to miss them very much. I know I’ll make new friends, but I doubt I’ll ever find anyone like the friends I already have. I’ll try not to lose you along the way, as long as you do the same 🙂