Silvanus' Blog

Torment eats my soul
Something touched, felt, never known
Unable to satiate the beast inside
Solutions elude
Seeking understaning
Deprived of concious thought
Imagination overwhelming
Beating, thrashing, confounding
My heart guides me,
My logic tells me,
Which is true?
What should I do?
I reach levels of grasping
but find them illogical
Pain follows me,
Torments me,
Rends my soul
Wish I could believe
That which seems to be reality
But imagination takes me aflight
and confuses me again
Want to understand
Want it to be gra
Fear it is achasan
Cannot handle the pain
The torment inside
My brain is filled to bursting with possiblities
Which is the thread fate will choose?
Will the skein be cut clean?
Will it be allowed to weave?
My soul is the playground of Eris
now tormented with the possibility
The risk is great
But is the reward the greater?
Is the risk worth the gamble?
If snake’s eye I roll,
The pain will be great
If seven or eleven,
The prize inconceivable
Please grant me the clue
to unravel this tangle of despair.
Will I cast true
or will confusion begin anew?

I’m a freak and do Karaoke and this is one of the songs I sing. I just kind of thought of it and decided to post it.

Artist: Love & Rockets
Title: So Alive

I don’t know what color your eyes are, baby,
But your hair is long and brown.
Your legs are strong, and you’re so, so long.
And you don’t come from this town.

My head is full of magic, baby,
And I can’t share this with you.
The feel I’m on a cross again, lately,
But there’s nothing to do with you.

I’m alive, so alive.
I’m alive, so alive.

Your strut makes me crazy, makes me see you more clearly.
Oh, baby, now I can see you.
Wish I could stop,
Switch off the clock,
Make it all happen for you.

I’m alive, so alive.
I’m alive, so alive.

I don’t know what color your eyes are, baby,
But your hair is long and brown.
Your legs are strong, and you’re so, so long.
And you don’t come from this town.

My head is full of magic, baby,
And I can’t share this with you.
The feel I’m on top again, baby,
That’s got everything to do with you.

I’m alive, so alive.
I’m alive, so alive.

Desire
—————
The breath of desire
Caught between lips
Trapped behind teeth.
Fighting to get out
Beat down by it’s keeper
Mistreated, abused
Kept at bay
Saved for the right day
Kept until there are right words to say
But they won’t come
Until it’s too late
Trapped behind the gate
Unable to transcend
Incapable of making amend
Lost forever on the wind
The breath of desire escapes again

Steve Nicks – Crystal

Do you always trust your first initial feeling
Special knowledge holds truth bears believing
I turned around
And the water was closing all around
Like a glove
Like the love that had finally, finally found me
Then I knew
In the crystalline knowledge of you
Drove me thru the mountains
Thru the crystal-like clear water fountain
Drove me like a magnet
To the sea

How the faces of love have changed turning
the pages
And I have changed oh, but you…you remain
ageless
I turned around
And the water was closing all around
Like a glove
Like the love that had finally, finally found me
Then I knew
In the crystalline knowledge of you
Drove me thru the mountains
Thru the crystal-like clear water fountain
Drove me like a magnet
To the sea