Silvanus' Blog

Archive for November, 2003

Just finished helping set up for a late Halloween party at my friends Brad and Tenille’s place. It looks to be a really cool party! I’m going to deck out all demon style again, that’s what they all want me to do. Apparently I look pretty good when I do that, so we’ll see.
Jackie is going with me, so it should be pretty fun, hopefully. I don’t know a whole lot of the people that will be there, but Brad, Tenille, Jeff and Tara are pretty cool people so I’m assuming their friends will be too 🙂
It’s kind of nice getting to go to a ‘small’ costume party after anyway, since the dance at UVSC had pretty much nothing but hip-hop playing. I don’t really dig on the hip-hop too much.
Should hopefully be starting my other job here pretty soon. It’ll be great, just a few extra hours, and I’ll be making a fair amount of extra money. Need some good savings to get myself to California comfortably.
Anyway, got a long day ahead. Gonna crash now.

Not really anything to say, other than I love this song. The lyrics just don’t do the whole of it justice either, Type-O kicks ass.

Artist: Type O Negative
Album: October Rust
Title: Love You To Death

In her place one hundred candles burning
as salty sweat drips from her breast
her hips move and I can feel what they’re saying, swaying
They say the beast inside of me’s gonna get ya, get ya,get…

Black lipstick stains her glass of red wine
I am your servant, may I light your cigarette?
Those lips smooth, yeah I can feel what you’re saying, praying
They say the beast inside of me’s gonna get ya, get ya, get…

I beg to serve, your wish is my law
Now close those eyes and let me love you to death
Shall I prove I mean what i’m saying, begging
I say the beast inside of me’s gonna get ya, get ya, get..

Let me love you too
Let me love you to death

Hey am I good enough for you?
Hey am i good enough for you?
Am I?
Am I?
Am I good enough
for you?

Well, another Halloween come and gone. This year was nothing real spectacular. Went to a dance at UVSC with Jackie, Alicia and Maria.
The music sucked ass as is usual with ‘mainstream’ events around here. God I hate listening to nothing but hip-hop, especially ’cause i really don’t like it. I can dance to the shit, but why? I mainly just sat there at the dance, and didn’t get too into it. I think I will just make sure to go clubbing or something from now on for Halloween.

Halloween has this tendency to make me feel very alone when I am single. I really just wish that I had somebody to closely share holidays like this with. I ache inside and it totally drives me nuts, I don’t want to feel like I need someone, I just want to lose these emotions.

Well, I’m going to go soak in the tub and feel sorry for myself until I prune out.